“If opportunity doesn’t knock, build the door” Milton Berle.
I don’t often get personal here on the blog, but there are days like today when I need to talk, so if you are in a mood for a bit of ‘blah blah’, here I am. I feel kind of stuck recently, and I’m not sure what to do about it…maybe you will have some good advice for me?
If you are following my blog, you know my story, at least the game changing part of it – when I left my corporate job behind to follow interior dreams. It’s been over a year since we’ve moved to Italy and I am very grateful for all the good things and the bad things happening, as they are also necessery to understand that it’s not an easy journey. The blog has grown a lot since the move, brinnging new opportunities, which I could only dream of before. Main thing being – moving my blogging from the couch (or bed occassionaly!) to my own studio. I really like the sound of it – ‘studio’ although it’s a tiny, little space where I take photos. However, regardless the size and the fact that it used to be a stand-alone garage before (!), it is something I am incredibly proud of, for the reason that it was one of those ‘next steps’ which opened a lot of new opportunities.
I am one of those people who don’t often speak about their personal achievements. Reaching goals, is a part of our everyday life, and the satisfaction is always my best reward. Sometimes I even forget about the good things happening and focus on the future. On the other hand looking at how far I have gone since the day I started (do you remember the first posts? I hope not!) there is a lot to celebrate and yet I feel completely…. stuck.
Theoretically, I am ready for the next step, but I am not sure what it might be. Don’t get me wrong, I’m full of ideas, of what might be ‘next’,Β my ‘to do’ and ‘ideas’ lists are neverending, however non of them seems to be strong enough, to keep me awake at nights. Instead I feel like I am being surrounded by few drafts in my head, missing the plan of action. I feel like I want to play, but dont’t know what game.
Do you ever feel this way too?
I am with my head in the clouds these days, feeling the need to change and improve something. Somehow I know it’s out there but for some reason I am not able to grab it. Perhaps, because it would mean going out of my comfort zone? Trying new things? Being thrown in to the deep water again, when I am already feeling quite comfortable where I am. Or maybe what’s blocking the action is the fear it’s not going to work out? Does it sound familiar to you?
Picture: Agata Dimmich
Yes it does. Not exactly about my blog (although I was I had/made more time for that), but I am feeling similar things when it comes to my job. And I am afraid I don’t have any sound advice. Maybe patience? Only in my case perhaps. π
I totally understand Iris, I had this feeling before I quit my job…in my case leaving it behind and starting a new (better) adventure was a solution, in fact one of the best decision I’ve ever made. Very scary at first, I felt completely lost during the first month, but then slowly found a way to follow my dream. Sometimes taking few days off really helps, maybe that’s what we should do now π
I wish I had some words of wisdom to offer . all I can say is that you are not alone . in fact, you have written down so many of the things that I have being feeling lately too . particularly that feeling that it { whatever it is } is out there but you just can’t grab it . will be keeping an eye on any comments offering more wisdomly words than I can . have a lovely day .
Good to hear I’m not alone Sharon! I’m thinking, perhaps trying new things or visiting new places would help, it often opens my eyes for new ideas and pushes me to act. I guess what’s bothering me the most is the lack of motivation to make this next step.
Maybe a little holiday is a solution π I’ve been feeling down last year, after cutting myself off the internet for 10 days, I got some super powers π Thank you and same to you :*
I’m so glad you shared this post because I know very well how you feel. When it happens to me I just wait, let things evolve naturally, without rushing my decisions. If you are not feeling it deep down inside you, perhaps it’s not the right time yet. I know you are a perfectionist – you want things done well and maybe some ‘ingredients’ are still missing to make them the way you wish. As a result your gut feeling puts it on hold, and subconscious doesn’t keep you awake at nights. I hope it makes sense! π Anyway, it will happen when the time comes! And I’m sure it will be big. Go Aga! π
I think this is what I needed to hear Ida! It all makes sense, I haven’t yet come up with the full ‘recipe’ π Thanks a lot for your advice…Apart from being a perfectionist I am also very impatient, but as we all know..not everything happens over the night, rght? π I’ll wait, perhaps go on a short holiday, then get back to the drafts in mind and see what happens. Thanks so much Sweetheart!! Baci x
Honestly? Exactly in the same mood, felling the wondering to change/improve my working situation, like a step from yeah to fxxxx yeah… sorry for that but i’m sure you got the point ;).
At list you are not alone, I’m not alone and this for sure it will make it lighter and much better. Big hug and hopefully something nice will happen.
haha you stole my words V! Hope we can move on to the ‘f*** yeah’ stage pretty soon and celebrate big time. Are you coming to Milan this summer? A-what-a-hard-life aperitivo would be nice!
I will let you know! π
Bummer I know exactly how you feel, I was there a few weeks ago. My spark just went poof and it seemed that everything had been done before. My head kept on going round and round in tiny little circles and nothing seemed to connect. So I just did something else, worked in the garden, took the dogs for loooong walks and tried to forget about blogging. It took a few days – it’s like a drug this blogging thing – but it helped. Give yourself time to catch up with you. You are exceptionally talented and everything will fall into place. Sending lots of love from South Africa
Thank you so much for your heart melting compliment Michelle! I’m happy to hear you found a way to deal with it π So true, I am totally addicted to the virtual world, to the extent that I often forget inspiration can be found in everyday situations like taking a dog for a longer walk. In fact, I love to do that, having a moment to think without any distractors is priceless! (that’s when I manage to part with my phone and leave it at home π
I guess I need to get out of my routine…I’m thinking of escaping this weekend to get a breath of fresh air and clear my head. Uff, hope it will work like in your case! Big hugs xo